Story

I just finished reading Donald Miller's new book, "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years," where he looks at life through the lens of story and ask the question, are we living a good story. Lately, i have not been living a good story. Some movies have the scenes where time flies by, seasons changing, snow melting into spring. Or those scenes of rooms with christmas decorations popping up and moving around in sporadic paths with the quick passing of time. My life has been running around in those scenes, where time flies by and nothing of real importance is happening. Like the story needs to get to the important part, but part of the road is through a bunch of dull moving of parts with no real destination. It's harder to get out of bed then it has been in a while, not because i feel a certain way, but because i just don't feel all that much. My brain kind of hurts like someone's mulling over a hard situation, but i don't know really why it feels this way. It just is.

I want to live a better story, but it's hard to know how, and if i did i'm not sure i would have the ability to live it. I think we like the idea of stories lived, but are less willing to put forward the effort to make stories worth telling.

I think the best stories are the ones that involve sacrifice for the sake of love. It really is true. But love is such a hard thing to do because it usually involves some type of sacrifice and i really love myself...more than risking the sacrifice. When Jesus tells us the key to living is dying, i think he means if we really want to live a good story we have to learn to care less about ourselves and more about what he cares about. Namely himself and other people. I'm pretty sure we should be last on our list of priorities.

So i wish i had a light bulb to through down in writing the key to my life right now, but i don't. I could make one up and write it in cool font and stick it on my wall so i would always remember, but that doesn't ever work for me. I have plenty of words on my wall. I'm just going to pray that God would teach me how to live a good story. And hopefully that story leads to love. And hopefully i will forget about myself for a while.